Sunday, July 10, 2011

Summertime and the living IS


As Madi was being wheeled into her February surgery, Dr. Deeney announced, "I have great news. This is your last VEPTR surgery".
I guess he thought that would be wonderful. But, Madi being Madi, she started to cry. She thought it meant she wouldn't see her nurses, doctors, and child life specialists from Children's Hospital of Pittsburgh again.
Dr. Deeney assured her she has to come back for visits- but not surgery, and she eventually calmed down.
Leaving the floor after recovering was just like a movie. The nurses lined the halls and hugged her as she left...they have literally seen her grow up before their eyes.
I'd like to tell you I am relieved. Ecstatic. Over joyed. But I can't. I can tell you that the end of the VEPTR journey is simply a turn in this long road. Madi still has joint pain and swelling; she "sprains" anything and everything easily; her skin is still painful; her eyes still concern me... She is only 4'4" and will not be much bigger... and for all the wonderful, amazing, miraculous achievements...I still have "mama worry".
Madi is one of the first 100 kids EVER to have the Vertical Expansion Titanium Ribs implanted in her body. This procedure, undoubtedly, saved her life. Now, via facebook and twitter and social media onslaught, so many "newbies" to the VEPTR program reach out and have questions for us. They are nervous, scared...wondering. I distinctly remember that fear and those feelings, and I WISH I could tell them "it will all be ok"> But, I cannot. I do know that, for us, it was the ONLY way... and that everything we handle from here on out is just another step on her journey.
Middle school was "painful". High school looms next year. Madi is bouyant, joyful, a happy sprite of a pretty faced girl who loves music, voice, acting, art, dance and baby sitting. Like all other almost-14-year-old-girls she just wants to be accepted, appreciated and included. That is not always the story.
I realize, partly from working daily with teens, that her hurt feelings don't just stem from the things that set her apart from her peers-- there are plenty of bullied and ignored pre-teens and teens in this world who appear perfectly "normal"... but I worry about her more for her differences, lest they mask her exceptional ABILITIES.
But now, it is Summer. She just had a grand time in a performance of Bye Bye Birdie, was awarded THE highest honor in her Nana's name at dance recital, got an 89.7 overall grade point avg for 8th grade, and scored high in both vocal and percussion NYSSMA solos.
She is enjoying the pool in our back yard, babysitting, and her true friends... and has made many exciting plans for this SURGERY FREE Summer... so living IS easy.
Now, if I could just stop WORRYING!:)